He's seven. He seldom has thoughts more complicated than the desire for candy.

A new year and new decade both begin in 2 days! It's crazy to look at even this year and all that's happened, let alone an entire decade!

I'll be ringing in the new year/decade with a boyfriend. AJ finally decided to be the boyfriend. I gave him a choice of either be committed 100% or I'll start dating other people because I want a relationship. I gave him until the 18th to decide. I figured that'd be a good day because if he didn't want to, I'd be down and sad anyway since it was my last day with my kids at Sorenson.
He opened the door with flowers as a cute surprise and I said he was the best semi-boyfriend ever. He said he wanted to drop the semi thing :)
I feel bad at times though because I feel like I forced it on him. In a way I did because I said I would date other boys. Sometimes it feels like he's not fully into it like I am. I know he likes me, but sometimes it just seems like he just isn't all there. Like I'm the back-up or that year chasing me wasn't really worth it or it got old so he doesn't see me the same.
Hopefully none are the case because he is so amazing and makes me super happy.

Tomorrow is my very last day at the Sorenson Center. My kids are gone and I cried so much. Mostly for Thalia. That little girl owns my heart. I love her so much. I hope she does well with life. She had cancer when she was 5 and is such an amazing girl.

I graduated college. I need a grown up job. I need to make cupcakes. Bye

I want to be in London

Oh and I have a half brother apparently.. What the fuck 2009? You're ending epically.

I'm so ready to graduate

Glad to see you made it... Kyle Butler...

October was by far the best Halloween month I had ever had. AJ was a huge part of it. I like him so much, it's crazy.
I was originally going to be Eva Braun and AJ was my hubby Hitler, but I turned into Anne Frank with Hitler :)

Life has been treating me well lately. I've made some amazing friends because of Sabrina and it's so great. Sabrina's wedding was the most beautiful wedding I've seen and I feel so lucky to have been in it. She's definitely one of my favorite friends.

School is going well and I semi-enjoy my classes. I don't think anyone likes their classes all of the time. My african american lit teacher has been quite judgmental toward me lately. It's a little funny, but for someone that is so proud of who he is and hates when people marginalize him, he is doing a lot of it with me. Apparently he thinks when I was a kid I was a handful and a rebel. That's not me at all. I was actually a really good kid and teenager.

I've been dating a boy named AJ and I'm completely nose over tail lately. According to him, he's "smitten" with me also. He went to Vegas yesterday till Sunday.. Boo.. All his friends and the family (yeah I've met some family) have said that I'm perfect for him. The big winner was his dog though. She doesn't like anyone close to AJ because she's territorial, but she loves me. It's so great! I'm a nerd.

Pin-Up Girl Espresso opens this Sunday with me opening it. I'm nervous!

I am completely lost.

I want a boyfriend..
But no boy I know..
A brand new one.

Awesome song dude! Chumbawamba is like, the soundtrack of my life!

Fired Up! is a hilarious movie.. Seriously so funny!

My dad broke my front brake on my scooter so I wasn't able to go scootering it up with the ladies. They had a BBQ after that they told me to go to and it was a lot of fun. I met really cool people and made a friend that I'm pretty stoked on.

As for my boys, there's now a #4.. His name is Aaron and I've had a mega crush on him since last fall semester.
#1 has been busy, but is taking off one of the days I have off so we can go out.

#2 and I hung out last night. We went to Mo's for an open mic night. He's so pretty after not seeing him for a few days, I remember why I liked him so much. I also remembered one of the aggravations I have with him.. He's always high. He came from Midway and sat down with me and his eyes were so glazed and red. Soo stoned.... Oh #2.. But he felt bad and I told him he was dumb for driving an hour up here. He bought me beer and kissed me goodbye so yeah..

#3 and I hung out on Friday. We went up to the "B" and his friends were camping so we went to hang out by the fire. I saw some randoms I knew in high school and you know what? I remember why I didn't like them. At least they aren't as big of idiots. I do have a problem with #3 though; for one he is still hella mormon and all that jazz, for two I think I have a crush on his best friend. Sometimes that crush seems to be returned. I don't know.. #3 is pretty fun too.

#4. Yay #4! I've missed him. When we met he was in a really low point of his life and he said he's finally out of it. He told me he misses me and that he's really excited to see me and what not. I'm excited. This week he's bidding on a house so he's hoping to get it closed soon.

Ugh boys.. Ugh ugh ugh..

I'm going to Harry Potter tomorrow at 12:45 AM.
I also start working at Sorenson Center! Wooo

Take me down to London town

I've joined an all girl vintage vespa club.
Our first drive is Saturday and I'm stoked as hell.

Oh Boys...

I'm going to have to follow Hailey with numbering and talking about situations.
1)Matt
2)Brent
3)Luke

I haven't seen #1 since picked up dog and that was only for a few minutes. It kind of bums me out because he's always busy and what happened before I left threw me off my game. Whatever though.

#2 is always at his farm making hay. Yup he makes hay. We spent the fourth of July together (his request). His farm is huge. There was a little mountain by his house where they shot off fireworks and they were awesome. There was family, their friends, all that stuff. I stayed over and he got sick because everyone in the house was sick. So we hung out for a little once we woke up and then I left. Unfortunately, #2 lives almost an hour away. He's rarely in Salt Lake so we haven't been able to hang out.

#3 reminds me of high school, but in a good way. He loves outdoor activities and I do not. It's a rare occasion that I'll do outdoor things. I think it's neat though.

I don't think I'm ready for a relationship cause I don't completely know if I'm over #1. He's too confusing.. Ugh.

Take me back to London

Up the shirt and down the panties

Oh the things Carol says..
Here's boyfriend and me. I couldn't fix the red eye because of pure stupidity
I wonder what we were talking about at this moment because he seems very enthralled in the conversation

Wanna be a baller, shot caller, 20 inch blades on the impala

My second week here a girl stopped me and asked me if she could take my picture for a magazine and put it online to show stylish girls with glasses. I looked really awkward, but she put it up and here's the link.
http://www.osoyou.com/picture-galleries/SWOTY/Specsavers-SWOTY-12.publisha

This is my trip

London Calling

I'm getting a little upset more and more about leaving.
I met a boy from Ohio that I really like and we've hung out loads since we met. Since I leave soon I'm thinking I should back off because I like him so much already and I'm going to have to say goodbye soon.
Maybe I should ask for advice from WellHonestlyNow or you guys could help me out..

Scotland

I can't really say much until I get back to London.
I'm in Edinburgh right now staying in a really nice hostel. Well, it was really nice until I just now walked in the room with 7 girls and 1 boy and I walked in first out of 6 of the girls and there is the 1 boy having sex with some random.
They started again when I left.
Best part.... I sleep on the top bunk above him.

I leave back to London tomorrow but I'm ok with that because I already miss it.
I come back to Utah in 3 weeks from today. I'm upset about it.
I met a boy a few weeks ago and I really like being around him. Him and I are going to the cartoon museum when I get back from Scotland.

Hope Utah is good. I know that London is.
Loves

My interesting life

I'm off to the pub right about now, but I figured I'd let you know the randomness in my life.
The other day I was shopping with my friend Jessica and I was just looking at people while walking and there I see a naked man. Yes my friends. Naked from head to toe. No underpants at all. I warned Jessica so she only saw the side of him. We just kept giggling and kept walking. Then we look down and see a big pile of clothes, shoes and all. We laughed even harder! We saw some cops and walked up to them and told them and apparently nobody had told the police. They were shocked and headed towards him.
Another random is that
I went to Speaker's Corner again. It's a place in Hyde Park where people are free to preach and say whatever they want. Along with that, people are welcome to argue with them. So a nice old man turned around after being sick of one person and looked at me and asked if my tattoos were real. I told him yes and he said "why did you destroy God's body?" and I replied with "This isn't God's body. This is my body" and he kept arguing with me about it. He also kept saying how I was going to burn in hell for my sins and ruining God's body. I did get a bad sunburn, but that was about it. Ha face God!
My trip is random. I still get sad thinking about leaving soon.. Well 3 weeks. But I just don't want to. I want to stay here and live here. If it were possible, I wouldn't come home.
I'm off to the pub.
Miss you guys!

oh. my. god.

London... Day 9

I've been here for 9 days.. I'm sad cause it flew by so quickly and I still want to do so much.
I found a bunch of free things to do and I'm excited about them.
I think I might go to Paris this upcoming week.

Last night was crazy. Apparently there is a huge party that happens only once a year down at the beach and on the way to a pub we met a British man named Marcus and he told us to come. It was awesome, but a little scary. A lot of people offered drugs to us.

Down time

So I've been out and about all week (except yesterday) and I've had a lot of fun.

It's only been a week and I don't want to go home at all in 5 weeks.

I went to a pub called the Volunteer twice this week and I love it there. The people are just fun and nice. I met a couple and the man gave me a list of places I must go to and directions and such. I'm pretty stoked on it.

I miss my pups and I wish they were here. I also really wish my friends from home were with me too. It'd be way fun... Hint hint miss bina :)

The dorm rooms are a little gross and small. The bathrooms are shared and I really don't like that at all, but whatever.

I guess I have to go do stuff. Love you all.

I gots pictures up!
http://www.flickr.com/photos/misstaylorloy/

I'm safe! Don't fret at all!
I'm posting pictures tonight or tomorrow.
In about an hour I'm going to a pub.

Byeee

Dear You All

I'm leaving to London today!! I'll try to keep up once in a while on the blog. 

If you want to see my pictures throughout the trip I'll be posting them on my flickr account!!

http://www.flickr.com/photos/misstaylorloy/

BYE!!!

Pffft I'm the sexiest thriller of the year.. Douche..

So I leave in 1 week. I'm pretty excited, but very nervous. I have so much to do still.

Here's a poem.

A Dinosaur (I’m not tasting anything)

 An empty fire pit with kids sitting telling stories

Little girls sharing secrets and giggling

Softness and tendernous

Small voices saying “ooh and ahh”

Lying on the grass with flowers in their hair

Staring at the white and gray clouds

Surrounded with blue air

It smells like spring time

Here is the beauty after a long winter

Haha take that stupid nature loving teacher whom I hate. It turned out great and I left early.. 

Ok so I asked Bear to come over tonight and he said he had a study group and I said "meh." A little after 6 today he texted me and said that his group was canceled and that he and Derby could come up for a bit if I wanted.

Well of course I want! So he came over and it was fun. We just talked a little and stuff. I'm starting to think he might miss me a little bit. Fantastic! Derby is such a fatty! He's bigger than Reggie almost and he's not supposed to be at all! I love him so much.

He was at brunch with his mom the other week and they were talking about his graduation. He then proceeded to tell her that I was getting ready to leave for London and she told him to tell me congratulations and good for me. He told me that every time he'd start talking about his graduation, she'd start talking about how excited she was for me. How nice! I miss her. I know that she's probably thinking Bear's a dummy for letting a catch like me go hahaha! Jokes.

And now for some pictures!

I am infatuated with this guy

Let's do this! I'm a cashew!

This weekend was fantastical. Friday I picked my mom up from the airport and hung out with her all night. Saturday I had lame work, but then I saw Hippie real quick which was nice, a little weird, but nice.

I got to go to the Bee's game with Bina and Anna and it was amazing! It was a little cold as well, but worth it. I miss Bina, I wish I saw her more.. Pfft.

Today I had lame work again. I spent most the morning with my darling Myha. I love that girl more than anyone. She makes me so happy. 

I just got home from dinner with Bear. It wasn't awkward at dinner at all. It was really nice and it made me miss him, but I don't mind.. We might've kissed a little and stuff haha.. I'm glad he wanted to see me before I left.

Now french homework.. ugh

Pictures that my friend took of me

Apparently I'm not big on the smiling thing..

My car is so freaking dirty

A conversation with my boss

Me - Do we have an electric drill?

Him - No.. Why do you need one?

Me - To drill your mom.

Oh and this

Je pense.....

Quand j'avais 13 ans, je savias que j'etais en amore avec l'idee de vivre a Paris.

Mais maintenant, je veux etre dans Chicago.

Quand j'ai 26, je veux etre la.

I know it's annoying that I write multiple posts at a time, but I don't like clumping them together.

Hippie is pretty great. He waited for me after class today, but I had to leave early. Too bad he's like a real hippie and smokes the weed.

Missionary and I are going out Friday.. Woo!!

I leave in 2 weeks and 2 days...

I miss the Bear.. 

It's just being with someone so long that you're uncomfortable without them...

Poems from Kobayashi Issa

 New Year's morning - 

everything is in blossom!

I feel about average.

------

For you fleas too

the nights must be long,

they must be lonely.

Don't kill that fly!

Look - it's wringing its hands,

wringing its feet.

------

In this world

we walk on the roof of hell,

gazing at flowers.

Random poem from class

Ballad of Oranges and Grapes by Muriel Rukeyser

After you finish your work
after you do your day
after you've read your reading
after you've written your say —
you go down the street to the hot dog stand,
one block down and across the way.
On a blistering afternoon in East Harlem in the twentieth century.

Most of the windows are boarded up,
the rats run out of a sack —
sticking out of the crummy garbage
one shiny long Cadillac;
at the glass door of the drug-addiction center,
a man who'd like to break your back.
But here's a brown woman with a little girl dressed in rose and pink, too.

Frankfurters, frankfurters sizzle on the steel
where the hot-dog-man leans —
nothing else on the counter
but the usual two machines,
the grape one, empty, and the orange one, empty,
I face him in between.
A black boy comes along, looks at the hot dogs, goes on walking.

I watch the man as he stands and pours
in the familiar shape
bright purple in the one marked ORANGE
orange in the one marked GRAPE,
the grape drink in the machine marked ORANGE
and orange drink in the GRAPE.
Just the one word large and clear, unmistakable, one each machine.

I ask him: How can we go on reading
and make sense out of what we read? —
How can they write and believe what they're writing,
the young ones across the street,
while you go on pouring grape into ORANGE
and orange into the one marked GRAPE —?
(How are we going to believe what we read and what we write and we hear and we say and we do?)

He looks at the two machines and he smiles
and he shrugs and smiles and pours again.
It could be violence and nonviolence
it could be black and white      women and men
it could be war and peace or any
binary system, love and hate, enemy, friend.
Yes and no, be and not-be, what we do and what we don't do.

On a corner in East Harlem
garbage, reading, a deep smile, rape,
forgetfulness, a hot street of murder,
misery, withered hope,
a man keeps pouring grape into ORANGE
and orange into the one marked GRAPE,
pouring orange into GRAPE and grape into ORANGE forever.

I'll Haiku You!!

I've come to hate one of my teachers more than I thought I could.

After I gave a lesson plan that was really supposed to be on my own teaching methods she lectured me, the girl I did the lesson with, and the people who did one after us on not using Judith Michaels (some writer) in our writing.. 

Then praised the lesson on Haiku and asked why it's so important. I figure it's because the Japanese probably teach sonnets, so we should teach Haikus.

So after being pissed off, I had a Haiku for her...

I do it myself

No need for Michaels' help

I'll do it alone

Also she constantly says "what are we seeing her.. what is happening" 

My instant thought is "your mom"

Soon

Before I leave to London in 45 days, I am going to do stand up comedy at Wise Guys on the open mic night. 

I'm nervous and I'm not sure exactly which day I'll be doing it, but I am for sure.

I want to be rich and I want to be famous

Did you ever have the night where you don't know what the fuck you're doing except that what you're doing is something completely wrong? Oh yes those nights are now my reality. As a drunk little girl talked to her ex and he lied about something we both knew was a bad idea because he's a lazy ass. But the result was much needed release for the both of us. The morning texts were sorries and sheeshes, but understanding that whatever the fuck. Hilarity came about in my life at that moment when I realized how ridiculous my actions were and how ridiculous his were as well. The hilarity was not construed at the beginning, but the moment I heard the words I will not utter, it transpired. 

While talking to some people and my mind fully clear, I began discussing how I've known little kids that I've wanted to shove and push down on the ground. Let me tell you, later I realized being pushed on the ground hurts your ass. But in my defense, those little kids deserve being pushed on the ground by someone bigger than them. I feel they need to see that it's not fair when they pick on smaller kids because it's rude. Also when they are being little douche bags and treating adults like they're nobody, I feel like if I pushed them down, they really deserve it and it's not my fault that they are turds. 

I would trade a BLT minus tomato for Molly right now. 

I got a cantaloupe the other day and assumed my mom would eventually cut it for me. Apparently she would've had I just asked her. I feel that if I had her cut it for me, it'd make her feel good about herself. She would get a nice pat on the back from me and a hug and a thank you. I know moms like that kind of thing. 

Friends

I don't actually have friends on this except my Hailey. 

I wish I had more, but it's ok because I'm not too entertaining. 

Wisdom teeth hurt when coming out. 

Ick.

I absolutely hate when little kids have to get into the picture and end up ruining it.

This is Chowder.. I fell in love with him..

Me and Chowder pwn.

He cuddled with me in the mornings in St. George.

I love this little girl more than anyone in the world. She owns my heart.